Day 29

Keeping it short and light tonight.

Today was just an average day, and since I have pretty much used most of the obvious things to write about the past 28 days, I had to dig deep. I looked for something, any small little thing that made me smile today.....

I get home and look out the windows and see the amazing lights of the city. At night the lights twinkle, kind of like they are moving, or like they are a giant Christmas tree. I absolutely LOVE where I live. We are so blessed to live here, where everyday I can look out my window and see the ocean, and the amazing city of San Francisco, and the golden gate. I am in awe of the beauty, and at night these twinkling lights are calming. Also, the house next door still has its Christmas tree up, and still turns on their lights EVERY NIGHT. Adam and I chuckle, and make little bets when we think this tree is coming down, but, here we are, almost APRIL, and I can look outside and see this.....





Goodnight.

Day 27-28

Ok, I am behind a day here, so I am going to say two things that make me happy!

One: I briefly explained on facebook about this, but left some details out. I went to Home Depot to get some dirt. I had 4 huge bags in my cart, and the stupid wheel broke. I was struggling to push this broken cart to my car when an employee saw me and ran over to help. He was so nice. He told me "You cant always be superwoman, sometimes you need help". What wise and wonderful words from this young man. I was brought almost to tears thinking about him on the way home- How NICE he was, and he didnt need to be. How many people do I come in contact with that I am that nice? I was so happy about it, i called his supervisor and told him.

My friend Tabitha is right. She said today : People are so quick to share when something pissed them off, even something minor, but few share when something pleases them.. especially when it is minor. Very true. I spread the kindness, and in turn, i felt GOOD inside. So, go spread some kindness! I would love to hear what you did!



OK, number 2: I am thankful for.... SPRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow! Spring is here and I feel GREAT about it! The sun is out, the air is warm, and I spend every chance I could out in it today. I planted plants, I pulled weeds, I transplanted plants. How wonderful it feels! This past Winter was so dark for me, and now I feel a new breeze of fresh life, and feel so alive! There is still more to do in the yard, but- here are some picts of some happy plants that made my home their home today. Enjoy- and Go outside!! (except for my special friends who still live in the cold... im so sorry..)

Day 26

Ill post day 26 (yesterday) now, and today's later tonight.Almost done!!! And, Mango is a little upset that her post only got TWO comments..... So, keep the comments coming! For Mango's sake. ;)

Day 26: The seahorse

Yesterday started out rough. ROUGH. By noon I had already gotten myself so upset and thrown a tantrum or two. "Why cant I be this way" "Why cant I be that way" "Why isnt anything going the way I WANT". Well. I think we all have days like this, no? I was just so worked up about things in life I can not control. It gets so frustrating sometimes to want something so bad, and have no control whatsoever over it being that way.

I decided to stop throwing a pity party for one, and do something that will soothe me. So, I turned to knitting. No only knitting, but knitting a special gift for someone.


Theres something healing about giving isnt there? I can not post pictures because her surprise will be ruined ( I know your all wanting it to be you....) But, its very special, and I cant wait for her to get it. Amazing how that helped me. Then, Monday night is meditation night! I was getting dressed and saw a necklace in my drawer that my mom made for me. I beautiful seahorse. I put it on. Again, a gift given, happiness.

So, at meditation night the leader was talking about various Buddhist beliefs, which are found in many religions, which I found to be very true. (lets not turn this into a religious debate ya'll)
Point 1: Life is constantly changing.
Point 2: There is suffering in life. Well, duh. I have suffering in my life too.
Point 3: The cause of this suffering is our "attachment". Which, in listening to his talk, basically I got that we grasp so hard to the way we think our life SHOULD be, and suffer because... we cant control it. Thats life.

Thats exactly what I have been struggling with lately. I struggle because I see parts of my life "not fitting" with how I think things should be. I "suffer" (throw tantrums) because I cant just accept life for what it is, constantly changing and unpredictable.

Interestingly enough, I remembered being in a native American gift shop the other day, and I was reminded that many ancient cultures attributed special meanings to animals. I remember that I saw a seahorse in there. I got home last night and looked up the special meaning of the seahorse. This is what I found: They are known to be a symbol of patience and contentment. "Being content to be who they are". They are also known to be stubborn. In turbulent water they are known to wrap their tails on something to hold on. This is said to be a reminder to: be persistent in our goals, but be mindful that we are not too inflexible or stubborn in our achieving them.

May I be like this seahorse. Content with my life now, but persistent and mindful in reaching my goals....

Day 25

Day 25

Adam has been nervous that I would get through all 30 days and not have a Mango day... SO here it is.

Mango was born August 15, 2002, two days before we got married. She was born in Placerville Ca. It was a few months after we got married that I felt the itch to have our family grow again- We knew we eventually wanted 2 pugs, but I think Adam thought that we should wait... BUT... I was looking around online and found a breeder. I knew we wanted a black girl this time so I had to call around. It wasnt as easy as it sounds. Black pugs are harder to find.

Adam came home from work and I said that we should "just go see this pug"... We took Lucy, and drove up. We were told that she had 2 black girls. One was 6 weeks, and the other was 10. We showed up and she had both pugs out for us. When Lucy walked in, the older pug ran up and started smelling and jumping on her! I was more into the 6 week one at first, just because it was so small. Once I held Mango though (she was the 10 week one) I fell in love. I had to have her! Eventually I convinced Adam, and we took her home.


We met her mom, who was black, and super crazy looking. Her dad was VERY friendly, and now we see she got a little from both parents! She was a calm puppy. She was never really into playing with toys or chewing on things like lucy was, BUT she was very into Lucy. Lucy on the other hand, was very... put out. Now, they love each other of course, but Lucy enjoyed being an only child too.

We discovered after about a year that she has a thyroid disorder, and some anxiety issues. We treat them with medication, and just like people, all dogs are just different. I couldnt imagine loving another pug as much as Lucy, but I do, we do. She has such a strong, sweet, sensitive, personality. Sometimes she can be difficult, and crazy, but that is just one part of her amazing personality. She is SO full of love!

Every morning we wake up to what we call the "mango show". This is when she decides its time to wake up and really turns up the cute for us. She rolls around, climbs on our chest, licks our ears and snuggles in our necks. Its the cutest thing ever! We cant help but to wake up with a smile. She loves going on walks, eating, and laying on our laps! She is going to be 9 this year, and shes still our little black baby pug who has stole our hearts forever.

Day 24

Day 24- New Craft Day!

I have always seen these pictures of needle felted animals, and loved them. I thought they would be crazy hard, so I never tried. SO I watched some youtube videos, made some purchases, borrowed some items... and BAM. I have little birds. These made me so happy today. I need to figure out how to make little wire feet for them, but that will be another day. Also, in these pictures they look very "hairy" so I think I will give them a trim. In person you dont notice.
Enjoy! I made these out of pre-spun wool named "roving". I used little tiny needles to poke at it until I sculpted these shapes.

Cute huh!?

Day 23

One more week to go!

Today's post will be short because I am very tired. Tonight I am thankful for date nights! Ive had the same companion on these dates for the past almost 13 years now, and they never get old. I look forward to every single one of them! Our first date was so long ago, that neither of us really remember what we did. I know the first place we went together was Denny's. The first movie we saw together was The Truman Show. We first held hands on the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk. Our first kiss was on my parents couch (I'm sure you love hearing that mom and dad!) But every date since then has been wonderful because we just have so much fun together. We always find something to laugh at. Our first time at Dennys we laughed at the weird drunk people making fools of themselves. We also both commented about how a certain parking garage was... likely to be the setting for multiple sexual assaults.

Tonight we laughed at the crazy ladies sitting next to us in the theatre were like "drunk secretaries". We also laughed when a teen thought Adam was his dad (who was CLEARLY not... when we saw what his dad really looked like...) We are always laughing and enjoying each other.
Whether its a weekend in Vegas, a ride on the SF cable cars, a movie, dinner, trips to shows, museums, the beach, a walk in the park, or a night watching the Daily Show with the pugs, I love every date with my husband, because I just love my husband!!! I look forward to thousands and thousands more with him!

Day 22

Day 22

Today I woke up to a super rainy day. Rain was everywhere, and flooding was happening all over the bay area. It was cold, dreary, and unpleasant. I went to acupuncture. I stepped in a puddle on the way. I came home, lit a fire, brewed some hot tea, and enjoyed my peace. Oh how I love my peace. The rain hitting the windows, a pug on my lap, a hot fire. I also did some meditation, and 40 minutes of Yoga. I truly enjoyed my peace today.

Heres a picture of Lucy, also enjoying her peace.

What gives you peace?